I will be super busy tomorrow so my monthly blog update is a day early... you're welcome 🤣
Josh: Only 22 days until he leaves for his Manila Philippines Missions Trip. I am so excited for him to go but the thought of him being gone for 10 days is definitely causing extra worry in my mind. I was gone 3 days for a wedding and that felt like an eternity. Some times I think it helps to be away though...gives an extra spark when you get home. ;)
I'm looking forward to a date day on Friday... we will be shopping to get him some new clothes. He has also gotten some projects done around home including putting up a outdoor theater. It's portable and easy to take down for rain, etc. We can't wait to use it. Looking forward to spending many summer or even spring nights with family and friends!
If you could pray that his missions trip goes well all prayers would be so appreciated.
Abby: She is going to be 13 in 7 days! (April 17)
Crazy, right? We will be celebrating her Birthday on Saturday the 13th. We don't have all the details planned out yet but she's excited to spend the day with her 2 closest friends Zoe & Caden...then family and friends are invited to Rum Runners at 4pm for dinner & desserts! She is super excited.
I was able to catch some of her teachers at conferences and while she may have missed the honor roll she is still doing well. I would have loved to catch all of her teachers. I'm not too fond of the way conferences are set up.
Anyway, excited to share photos from her Birthday and praying all goes well...and great weather would be awesome.
Jasmine: Jasmine read my last blog and was like...Mom! All you said was Miss Detail. ;)
I don't think she'll ever not have that title. She was super excited to have made the honor roll! I only got to catch a few of her teachers at conferences. She is anxious to use her Kayak and it makes me want one too ;).
Josie: Josie is now 6. She had a great Birthday Month (March 26) ;) Despite being sick for a while she ended up feeling better for her birthday parties. She loved having her girl friends bowl with her and she got lots of LOLs.
She doesn't like cake so she requested cupcakes (LOL) So thankful for the friends who celebrated with us and for family parties also.
All of us have been sick lately except Josh.
Josie was sick the week before Spring Break. Then the rest of us were sick during Spring Break. We have lingering coughs and stuffy noses. I can't seem to clear my throat.
Loving some of the warmer weather days though. It has definitely helped my mood.
ME: Totally feeling better than the last couple of months. Sun has definitely helped.
Really enjoyed a weekend in Missouri with my Mom & Twin. (Except when my Sis snored) LOL.
It was great to have a girls weekend. The weather was beautiful.
On another note:
Did you ever read my blog about losing a friend? So many thoughts still pop up in my mind about it all. I suppose it's not worth trying to explain here. I hate the feeling of people not talking to me.
On the plus side: I've made so many new amazing friends. God totally put them in my life at the perfect timing. I feel so blessed to have met them and really pray God willing they'll be life long friends!
Food & Body Struggle Update: (see previous blog)
My main focus right now is "Wellness without the obsession". Focusing on what's best for me without being obsessed. No more diets. No more scale. No more numbers. No more tracking. No more guilt. Eating what makes me feel my best. No one should feel guilt around food.
Movement that makes me happy. No one should feel guilt about exercise.
I want to focus on things that matter because being consumed with food and my body size is not living my best life.
I'm not "letting myself go"
My mental health is just as important if not more important than my physical health and my mental health has taken a back burner. I can not drive myself crazy trying to stay at 135lbs.
I love that I've learned this missing piece. I do still feel like I could benefit from counseling but not sure where to turn.
Pretty sure I've just been hungry my whole life and that's been my problem. I often don't eat enough. Dieting has put me on a roller coaster that I probably would have never been on if I would have just focused on wellness without the obsession to begin with.
Restricting foods will never help anyone.
I have felt more freedom that I have in a long time though.
Like - I can go to a wedding and enjoy it without being worried about what I should and should not eat because I can eat a salad and a piece of cake. I can go on a weekend trip and just run 1 mile and be happy about it instead of getting all depressed because I didn't run 13.1. I can wear clothing that makes me feel good and not care what people think of it or worry about the size. If you don't like what I do or what I wear or what I look like, then you don't deserve a spot in my life. That sounds harse but I have to stop comparing and worrying about what people think or if people like me.
Reminder: surgery quote
"Not everyone will understand your journey and that's ok. Those who are meant to walk it with you, will...and that's all that matters."
A little all over the place at the end here. If you made it this far...please comment on my Facebook post so I know who follows along.
Much love to all my fans. ;)
