Allow me to introduce myself!

Hey! It's ME. Amanda. Allow me to introduce myself!

I have many new friends and followers so I'm starting here.

First and most important I am a child and daughter of an amazing and loving God. Which is the only thing that matters. He has blessed me tremendously and so much more than I deserve but until He calls me home and OH! How I can only imagine how that day will be!!! I'll just be here trying to live my best life and... if you have clicked on my blog to read my thoughts you may learn something new about me along the way.

I always say I have a hard time expressing my thoughts or I type them all out and then remember about a million other things I wish I would have said or forgot to say. I may have long blogs but I hope you'll stick with me. My thoughts may often be all over the place. Maybe you'll think I'm crazy. My hope is that by recording my thoughts, maybe they'll help someone else. Much of what I'm going to type about are things I really wish I would have learned a long time ago.

God gave me the best husband in the universe. His name is Josh. We will be celebrating our 15 year Anniversary in May. He loves me unconditionally even when I am so not lovable. We have 3 incredibly precious and beautiful daughters. Abigail (Abby) is 12. Jasmine is 11. Josie is 5. I often feel like a horrible Momma but I hope they know I love them with all my heart. We also have a Chi-Tzu named Jinger. I am her favorite. HEHE. She is 3 and we just got 3 little birds named Petey, Marley, and Fancey in December. They are still a little young so we're not sure if they are male or female. We currently live in Bailey, MI. Our daughters go to Kent City Schools and we have attended Ravenna Baptist Church since August of 2018. I will have more about our Church in upcoming blog posts.

Blog Title: Worth of Love to Infinity...
My name means: Worthy of Love and well I just love that. I love love. I feel like I love big. I often feel like I love too much sometimes...is that a thing? My problem is, I've never loved myself. I'm still trying to figure out why. I love my family. I love the friends I do have. I love sunrises and sunsets. I love birds. I love Jinger. I love the color purple. I love Eeyore. I love traveling. I love walking. I sometimes love running. I love Zumba. I love hearts. I love Reeses, white chocolate, raspberry chocolate chip ice cream, anything raspberry chocolate. I love raspberry lemonade. I love pineapple on my pizza. I love Norwex. I don't remember when I started telling Josh and my girlies that I love them infinity but that's what the to infinity is for. I've also said I love you to infinity to extended family and friends and if I have said that to you...I mean it.

I clean 16 homes at the moment and do all chemical free cleaning with Norwex. Someday I would love to work from home doing something. I really hope that something is sooner than later. ;)

I worry too much. I overthink too much. I create problems in my mind. I make mistakes. I have lost friends and even some family won't talk to me. I am sure I would benefit from professional counseling but it is just not in our budget at the moment. I probably would be diagnosed with depression or anxiety or both? The hardest part for me to understand though is because I love people so much...how can they just "throw me away" ? Like, if I could just explain my thoughts well enough they may understand and change their minds? Thankfully God knows my name, knows my every thought, He sees each tear that falls, and He hears me when I call.

The main thing on my mind right now that I really have wanted to share is my food and body journey that has really consumed most of my days. I have learned many new things that I wish I would have learned a lot sooner. I am going to write about all this in my upcoming blogs. It has often been a big struggle for me but my word for 2019 is TRUST. I want to put my complete trust in God to know that no matter what I look like each day, no matter what size I am, and no matter what anyone else thinks... every little thing is gonna be alright!

I feel completely different than the person I was in 2008, in 2015, 2018, etc. Seasons change, people change, bodies change, but God's love remains the same. Thankful I can turn to Him 24/7. I need Him every minute.

I will stop here for now...but know there is lots to come so I hope you'll stick around.

Praying for an amazing 2019 even though lots of things feel so different.
Much Love
Amanda