Don't know what to do???

I don't know why but I feel like I can never make a decision on my own. I always need someone to help me decide or "tell me what to do", or give their opinion. Drives me nuts and I'm sure it drives my family nuts as well. - You should see me in a store or trying to pick out clothes... CRAZY!!!

Decisions, decisions, decisions... HARD

I want to do what God wants me to do but sometimes do you ever feel like you don't quite know if you're doing what he wants you to do or if you're making the right decisions?

I feel like I need to start from the beginning to try and explain what I'm trying to make a decision about...

I started working at Blakeslee & Son in August of 2002 as an Executive Assistant and worked there until July of 2011 where I ended as a Service Coordinator. (9 years)

Since I had been there quite a few years I felt like I wanted to start looking for a new job to see if there was anything out there. Well I applied for a Service Coordinator position at Ahern Fire Protection because the job description sounded exactly like what I was doing at Blakeslee's. After I turned in an application I had a phone interview the next day, an in person interview shortly after that,  then a 2nd interview not too much longer after that, and then got hired very quickly. I thought WOW! Thank God! How perfect! I wanted something new and they wanted me. It was closer to home and I was going to make a little more money.

Well after working there for 35 days (which was the worst 35 days of my life) I was let go. The employees were mean and rude. The job wasn't anything like I expected. Everyone swore and said the F word a TON! If you know me you know I hate swearing. It was just awful. I cried most mornings driving into work because I did not want to be there. At first after I was let go, I was very scared because I wasn't sure what was going to happen and I worried about finances, loosing our house, etc.

I then decided to mention on Facebook that I'd be interested in cleaning and it took a little while but then it really just took right off. I loved it. It was a great way I could make some money while job searching. I had no idea that it was going to become what is has become today.

I kind of feel like moving me to Ahern was God's way of giving me the opportunity to live in a different environment to help me grow and learn and then give me what he knows I was praying for. (A flexible work schedule because I could schedule cleaning when I was available- which allowed me to have more time with my girlies)

Since Sept of 2011 I have cleaned homes, I've been a Kitchen & Aide Sub at Kent City Schools, and
then just recently I was asked to come back to Blakeslee & Son - so I accepted part time.

Part time because that way I could return, make extra money, but still clean (plus sub when needed). The girls are both in school so I can still take them and pick them up - so I'm not missing anything on their end.

My schedule is quite full and recently I've gotten more requests to clean and I hate saying no but this is where my whole problem with my decisions lie...(I have to reply back to 2 people as I'm typing this blog)

Do I just say no because you can't take them all when your schedule doesn't allow?
Do I try to fit them in somewhere?
Do I have a friend clean under me?
I've already had to say no to some & give up a couple cleanings - and don't know if I should take on new?

Plus you add on the fact that I'm pregnant which means I'll eventually be on maternity leave anyways and wouldn't be able to clean.

I don't want to give up cleaning totally because I'd like it to always be my "back up" if needed.
Cleaning was a great way for me to make some money while job searching but some weeks it hasn't been consistent enough to make me feel like I could ONLY clean.

There are some clients I no longer clean for due to their own financial reasons, etc. Or there were some weeks when there were schedule conflicts, etc.

I do prefer having a more consistent type job - it's easier to feel comfortable when you know you're getting the same pay check every other week instead of "if I clean then I'll get paid".

Looking for opinions I guess from my wonderful blog followers! <3