May 11th has come and gone but there were some things I wanted to wait to say so my blog is a little behind this month.
I feel like I have so much to say. I hope I don't forget it all.
Josh: Josh was gone for 11 days in May for his Manila Philippines Missions trip. We kept pretty busy so even though we missed him, we had our minds occupied so we didn't just feel alone everyday. We spent several nights with some of our amazing friends and so many checked in on us as well. We never felt alone. I am so thankful for our friends. I am really hoping Josh will write a blog about his trip. The stories the team shared were just so amazing to hear. God is so good and to see how he orchestrated the trip was just so good to hear. Thanks again to everyone who helped him get there. He has even been in contact with some of the people he met there. One of the great things about Facebook. We just absolutely love love love our Church and Church family.
Me: Josh just got us a new to us car. It's a 2014 Ford Flex. I am so thankful it worked out to get this. My car needed so many repairs and I feel so much more safe in my new one. It has quite a few bells & whistles too that make it extra special.
I am still cleaning 2 homes a day T-Th and 1 every Monday. Once summer starts it'll be a little less. I'm looking forward to that...I'm also looking forward to having my girlies help as much as their willing. I still often think about doing something different but I just don't know what that would be right now. >>Praying<<
Would love some Norwex parties/ demos / show you how it works !!!
I know I keep talking about friends but God sure has placed so many special ones in our lives ... right at the perfect time.
Some people know I've been learning about Undiet stuff , No Diets, Health at Every Size, Intuitive Eating, wellness without the obsession, etc. I think I have finally found the piece I was missing to my puzzle. I have never felt so FREE in my entire life. I can have wellness without being obsessed and I can feel good about myself. I can eat what makes me feel my best without tracking my food or feeling guilty about what I eat. I can enjoy being active and doing things I like to do without over exercising and without feeling guilty for missing a day.
I can put on a 2 piece bathing suit and not care if society thinks my body isn't meant for one. I don't have to wear spanx under my clothes to hide all my skin that society thinks I should make look smaller. I never have to step on a scale.
I can not believe how much diet culture crap had a hold of me. It really makes me sad how much time I wasted on things that didn't matter. My worth has absolutely nothing to do with outside appearance.
My only fear now that I need to work on is... Dr visits. I keep praying I never have to go. I can tell them I don't want to step on the scale but I even had a horrible nightmare last night and I was at the Drs. Gah, even typing that I'm in tears. I just hate that no matter what happened at the drs...it was always that my weight was a problem. Or when my weight was considered normal on a stupid scale that means nothing- my mental health was failing.
Anyway - more about all this later.
Last but not least... are we moving?
Kind of...
Girlies - YES !!! Abby, Jasmine, and Josie will all be Ravenna Bulldogs in the Fall.
Abby = 8th
Jasmine = 7th
Josie = 1st
This was a big decision for us and we're all so excited. If you'd like more information on why...message me and I'd be happy to share.
This may also mean my cleaning schedule will change- I am also only going to be cleaning homes much closer to home!
This weekend we will be up north at my Grandparents cottage for Memorial Weekend. Praying all goes well. This will be the 1st without Grandpa.
Thanks for reading friends! Comment if you made it to the end.
Much Love!
Thought this would be much longer but maybe it'll all come to me later.
Tuesday, May 21, 2019
Wednesday, April 10, 2019
A Day Early!
I will be super busy tomorrow so my monthly blog update is a day early... you're welcome 🤣
Josh: Only 22 days until he leaves for his Manila Philippines Missions Trip. I am so excited for him to go but the thought of him being gone for 10 days is definitely causing extra worry in my mind. I was gone 3 days for a wedding and that felt like an eternity. Some times I think it helps to be away though...gives an extra spark when you get home. ;)
I'm looking forward to a date day on Friday... we will be shopping to get him some new clothes. He has also gotten some projects done around home including putting up a outdoor theater. It's portable and easy to take down for rain, etc. We can't wait to use it. Looking forward to spending many summer or even spring nights with family and friends!
If you could pray that his missions trip goes well all prayers would be so appreciated.
Abby: She is going to be 13 in 7 days! (April 17)
Crazy, right? We will be celebrating her Birthday on Saturday the 13th. We don't have all the details planned out yet but she's excited to spend the day with her 2 closest friends Zoe & Caden...then family and friends are invited to Rum Runners at 4pm for dinner & desserts! She is super excited.
I was able to catch some of her teachers at conferences and while she may have missed the honor roll she is still doing well. I would have loved to catch all of her teachers. I'm not too fond of the way conferences are set up.
Anyway, excited to share photos from her Birthday and praying all goes well...and great weather would be awesome.
Jasmine: Jasmine read my last blog and was like...Mom! All you said was Miss Detail. ;)
I don't think she'll ever not have that title. She was super excited to have made the honor roll! I only got to catch a few of her teachers at conferences. She is anxious to use her Kayak and it makes me want one too ;).
Josie: Josie is now 6. She had a great Birthday Month (March 26) ;) Despite being sick for a while she ended up feeling better for her birthday parties. She loved having her girl friends bowl with her and she got lots of LOLs.
She doesn't like cake so she requested cupcakes (LOL) So thankful for the friends who celebrated with us and for family parties also.
All of us have been sick lately except Josh.
Josie was sick the week before Spring Break. Then the rest of us were sick during Spring Break. We have lingering coughs and stuffy noses. I can't seem to clear my throat.
Loving some of the warmer weather days though. It has definitely helped my mood.
ME: Totally feeling better than the last couple of months. Sun has definitely helped.
Really enjoyed a weekend in Missouri with my Mom & Twin. (Except when my Sis snored) LOL.
It was great to have a girls weekend. The weather was beautiful.
On another note:
Did you ever read my blog about losing a friend? So many thoughts still pop up in my mind about it all. I suppose it's not worth trying to explain here. I hate the feeling of people not talking to me.
On the plus side: I've made so many new amazing friends. God totally put them in my life at the perfect timing. I feel so blessed to have met them and really pray God willing they'll be life long friends!
Food & Body Struggle Update: (see previous blog)
My main focus right now is "Wellness without the obsession". Focusing on what's best for me without being obsessed. No more diets. No more scale. No more numbers. No more tracking. No more guilt. Eating what makes me feel my best. No one should feel guilt around food.
Movement that makes me happy. No one should feel guilt about exercise.
I want to focus on things that matter because being consumed with food and my body size is not living my best life.
I'm not "letting myself go"
My mental health is just as important if not more important than my physical health and my mental health has taken a back burner. I can not drive myself crazy trying to stay at 135lbs.
I love that I've learned this missing piece. I do still feel like I could benefit from counseling but not sure where to turn.
Pretty sure I've just been hungry my whole life and that's been my problem. I often don't eat enough. Dieting has put me on a roller coaster that I probably would have never been on if I would have just focused on wellness without the obsession to begin with.
Restricting foods will never help anyone.
I have felt more freedom that I have in a long time though.
Like - I can go to a wedding and enjoy it without being worried about what I should and should not eat because I can eat a salad and a piece of cake. I can go on a weekend trip and just run 1 mile and be happy about it instead of getting all depressed because I didn't run 13.1. I can wear clothing that makes me feel good and not care what people think of it or worry about the size. If you don't like what I do or what I wear or what I look like, then you don't deserve a spot in my life. That sounds harse but I have to stop comparing and worrying about what people think or if people like me.
Reminder: surgery quote
"Not everyone will understand your journey and that's ok. Those who are meant to walk it with you, will...and that's all that matters."
A little all over the place at the end here. If you made it this far...please comment on my Facebook post so I know who follows along.
Much love to all my fans. ;)
Josh: Only 22 days until he leaves for his Manila Philippines Missions Trip. I am so excited for him to go but the thought of him being gone for 10 days is definitely causing extra worry in my mind. I was gone 3 days for a wedding and that felt like an eternity. Some times I think it helps to be away though...gives an extra spark when you get home. ;)
I'm looking forward to a date day on Friday... we will be shopping to get him some new clothes. He has also gotten some projects done around home including putting up a outdoor theater. It's portable and easy to take down for rain, etc. We can't wait to use it. Looking forward to spending many summer or even spring nights with family and friends!
If you could pray that his missions trip goes well all prayers would be so appreciated.
Abby: She is going to be 13 in 7 days! (April 17)
Crazy, right? We will be celebrating her Birthday on Saturday the 13th. We don't have all the details planned out yet but she's excited to spend the day with her 2 closest friends Zoe & Caden...then family and friends are invited to Rum Runners at 4pm for dinner & desserts! She is super excited.
I was able to catch some of her teachers at conferences and while she may have missed the honor roll she is still doing well. I would have loved to catch all of her teachers. I'm not too fond of the way conferences are set up.
Anyway, excited to share photos from her Birthday and praying all goes well...and great weather would be awesome.
Jasmine: Jasmine read my last blog and was like...Mom! All you said was Miss Detail. ;)
I don't think she'll ever not have that title. She was super excited to have made the honor roll! I only got to catch a few of her teachers at conferences. She is anxious to use her Kayak and it makes me want one too ;).
Josie: Josie is now 6. She had a great Birthday Month (March 26) ;) Despite being sick for a while she ended up feeling better for her birthday parties. She loved having her girl friends bowl with her and she got lots of LOLs.
She doesn't like cake so she requested cupcakes (LOL) So thankful for the friends who celebrated with us and for family parties also.
All of us have been sick lately except Josh.
Josie was sick the week before Spring Break. Then the rest of us were sick during Spring Break. We have lingering coughs and stuffy noses. I can't seem to clear my throat.
Loving some of the warmer weather days though. It has definitely helped my mood.
ME: Totally feeling better than the last couple of months. Sun has definitely helped.
Really enjoyed a weekend in Missouri with my Mom & Twin. (Except when my Sis snored) LOL.
It was great to have a girls weekend. The weather was beautiful.
On another note:
Did you ever read my blog about losing a friend? So many thoughts still pop up in my mind about it all. I suppose it's not worth trying to explain here. I hate the feeling of people not talking to me.
On the plus side: I've made so many new amazing friends. God totally put them in my life at the perfect timing. I feel so blessed to have met them and really pray God willing they'll be life long friends!
Food & Body Struggle Update: (see previous blog)
My main focus right now is "Wellness without the obsession". Focusing on what's best for me without being obsessed. No more diets. No more scale. No more numbers. No more tracking. No more guilt. Eating what makes me feel my best. No one should feel guilt around food.
Movement that makes me happy. No one should feel guilt about exercise.
I want to focus on things that matter because being consumed with food and my body size is not living my best life.
I'm not "letting myself go"
My mental health is just as important if not more important than my physical health and my mental health has taken a back burner. I can not drive myself crazy trying to stay at 135lbs.
I love that I've learned this missing piece. I do still feel like I could benefit from counseling but not sure where to turn.
Pretty sure I've just been hungry my whole life and that's been my problem. I often don't eat enough. Dieting has put me on a roller coaster that I probably would have never been on if I would have just focused on wellness without the obsession to begin with.
Restricting foods will never help anyone.
I have felt more freedom that I have in a long time though.
Like - I can go to a wedding and enjoy it without being worried about what I should and should not eat because I can eat a salad and a piece of cake. I can go on a weekend trip and just run 1 mile and be happy about it instead of getting all depressed because I didn't run 13.1. I can wear clothing that makes me feel good and not care what people think of it or worry about the size. If you don't like what I do or what I wear or what I look like, then you don't deserve a spot in my life. That sounds harse but I have to stop comparing and worrying about what people think or if people like me.
Reminder: surgery quote
"Not everyone will understand your journey and that's ok. Those who are meant to walk it with you, will...and that's all that matters."
A little all over the place at the end here. If you made it this far...please comment on my Facebook post so I know who follows along.
Much love to all my fans. ;)
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